I am looking for ways to say goodbye to the Lion City. I am not sure this is the city where I want to start a family and grow old in. But I am not also sure that this will be my last in Singapore. I might come back but still very unsure. “What do you really want to do for a long time, over and over again?” I still don’t have an answer.
I wanted to take a bus ride around the city. I just wanted to stare out the window on a double decker bus and just let the mind wander. I just don’t know where to begin.
I have always been grateful ever since I stepped on this foreign shore. The possibilities, experiences and opportunities granted to me, even though it is short lived, I will forever cherish.
Last year, just before New Year, someone at work asked,” Who among you here are tourists?” I wanted to raise my hand up.
I do not know what to expect before I came to Singapore and I do not expect to gain much out of Singapore. I just lived in this city and experience what Singapore is all about. Now, I feel like I’m ready to move in a different direction but not quite so. It’s like a tug of war of emotions. Right now, I feel I would be wasting my time doing something that I will be so unhappy doing. This is why I decided to leave, not fight it, to just let it be and go.
I like to keep a clean house now. Few years back, I would not really care how the house would look like. I guess Singapore’s cleanliness is rubbing off on me. LOL! I started cleaning the kitchen and then moved to the bathroom. My housemate came home after work and was surprised. She thought it was her husband who cleaned the house. I forgot it was their turn to clean the house. What else can I do here at home alone? I see every little wrong thing around the house and I just go and fix it.
Packing Unpacking Repacking Done.
So, I’ve come to a decision. I won’t be going home right away. I will be travelling across some Asian countries for a while by land. I know it’s dangerous for a girl to travel alone. But I don’t want to be imprisoned by fear of travelling alone anymore. I just have to make sure that my plans are spot on to avoid too many surprises on the road.
Packing is damn hard! I let my older sister pack my stuff for me! Travelling light is hard too! I’m sending my entire stuff home. I’m backpacking and “luggage trolley-ing” (just a small one I promise) around Asia for I don’t know how long.